STARJUMP

2011-11-07T12:15:00.000+08:00

Dont call me dear
I m not your dear

I always believe never to make empty promises
Never to say it n do it the other way
Never to force one to do things against their will.

To be appreciated is to be sincere urself first.
Dont try if u dun want to.
B real.

Dun expect the world to hold ur back n treat u like a queen.
The effort lies with you,in your own hands.

Lose it the right way!

2011-11-06T18:09:00.000+08:00

Everybody's telling me i lost weight.
And everybody's worried if I'm sick.

Yes I'M SICK.
Sick for a healthy fit body that's why.

Don't say i'm too skinny just because you're getting fatter.
And dont say i'm unhealthy bcoz you're not.

I choose to stay healthy, and work for a fit body.
Away from alcohol and upside down lifestyles.
Then so can you!

So before you ask me whats wrong with me,
Look at yourself bcoz i'm perfectly normal.
But you're not.

Put down that burger untill you learn how to eat right..FATTY
Put down that cigarette and stop saying u need it to fit in.
Getcha ass up and work out without excuses.
Do something!

-end-

Liar liar liar

2011-09-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

2 years ago,

You promised to be there for me,

With roses for my convocation.

2 years later,

I stand alone with my family.

And you are nowhere in sight

For my convocation.

Promises are just nonsense.

Everytime i think of you.

Liar, liar, liar.

2011-09-01T19:12:00.000+08:00

I am busy bcoz i'm planning for my future.i dont have much time bcoz my future's at stake.i aint got all day bcoz i only live once.life is not all about fighting for what you want but i exist for a soul purpose!to live up to my dreams.so pls respect that and stop saying i'm too pushy.sit down n think to yourself.reflect on the little things that make you who you'll bcum.the train is leaving in a min,either you get on board or you don't.dont get left behind.bye.

Suck

2011-08-12T22:24:00.000+08:00

Today's been a suckass day. My voice is as quiet as mute. It doesnt kill to listen n b nice for a bit.Go on n look down on me now.i'll pee on your heads next time. Right choice to be away.

2011-08-06T00:28:00.000+08:00

Someday,one of these days,i will prove to you that without u i can also stand on my own. Thx for being so unsupportive always. dun forget you once started small too.dun underestimate.perseverence is the key n i will not let u get in my way.

2011-07-22T19:29:00.000+08:00

Two days ago,i settled my worst burden.today,i picked up a hell lot more.this time i promise to myself that in two years time,i'll achieve it.u can do it,if u believe.i need to keep reminding myself.juivy,jus do it. Burn the old chapter n run on

2011-07-03T00:33:00.001+08:00

Arent birthdays supposed to b a happy one??:(

2011-07-02T13:34:00.002+08:00

I need sum1 to help me move on.i need help.

share of inspiration

2011-06-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

Happy the man and happy he alone,

He who can call today his own,

He who, secure within, can say,

Tomorrow will do thy worst,

For I have lived today.

-Famous Roman Quote-

-Roman Civilisation-

Author unknown

10 things I hate about Cheras

2011-06-22T09:06:00.000+08:00

1)Lousy TRAFFIC
2)Lousy water
-practically dyed in dark brown water this morning (colour of period)

3)Lousy neighbours (Unfriendly adults with freaking annoying kids)
4)Pesky tenant
5)Overpriced lousy room
-tiny tiled toilet and holey bathtub.
6)Lousy roads
-Humps

7)Lousy Giant
-flooded carparks
8)Lousy food
9)JAM!!
10)Lousy toilet
-Tiny tiled floor with holey bahtub

*Good thing bout cheras: Ten minutes from my workplace and PJ area. To leave or not to leave??

the playboy

2011-06-17T08:35:00.001+08:00

89 and looking good.

Dats wad i call stamina.

Dump her, she's too old for u.

2011-06-08T20:51:00.000+08:00

After so long i still feel that waterfall or avalanche when i think of u.weird...

Anyway,stuck in a jam for more than an hour...wads new rite?!

Came across this porche cayenne but iys not the car dat's attractive enuf.its the no plate.

K155.nice.....

I like!

how was your day?

2011-06-06T21:36:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, when sumone asks how was your day?

I used to elaborate.

Now,When that sumone asks the same question again?

I would say fine/ok/good.

Bcoz i no longer know how to elaborate such a long story.

And most probably bcoz i'm reli exhausted everyday.

So,i'll understand if you say ok.

And i will stop asking y.

2011-06-04T10:34:00.000+08:00

Ever feel lost, scared, worried, timid and stressed at the same time?

Like as if you wonder how you can walk this road ahead alone?

I feel it every second of the day...

Yes, I feel weak and small when the world seems too overwhelming.

No more mommy or daddy to show you how to walk your life.

No point thinking of it even if you cry.

Just keep going and always believe that you'll eventually find your way.

JUST DO IT.

stop bullying on the road

2011-06-03T23:08:00.000+08:00

havent read the news for days...FUCK.no time,no energy, no mood.

That's life when u start earning money.24/7 routine.

Suck it up and live with it.

I was surprised to see someone mentioned my name in facebook...n its been gazillion years...yet the girl remembered my name and my cheering routines so clearly. That must have been a big impact for her back in those days.AAHhhhh....the carefree fun times fly by so fast.

Oh well, back to today.I have a story to share with all of you.

Miss Tweety was reversing her car at a back alley when she saw Mr.Jerry signalling to turn in.So,she politely waved to him cause he had to wait for her to get out.And at that very moment, another car was coming out from the other side instead..so..Miss Tweety had to wait a little longer for the car to move away before she could get out.

Mr.Jerry was probably having his menopause that he started honking non stop.(or maybe he was just taking advantage of young Miss Tweety whose a girl). Miss Tweety got pissed off, stared at the old man in disgust and her hands gave him an apalah gesture.

Eventually, they ended up quarelling about it..supposingly both parties had a bad day.

Jerry: Oii miss!you wanna come out then you hurry up lah. You think everyone got all day to wait for you ar.

Tweety: Sir,didn't you see there was a car blocking my way?

Jerry: Then??!None of my business wad.Its your problem!U block my way means you are wrong!

Tweety:!!!!!!!.....(deep breath) Sir,do you have a daughter?

Jerry: HAR?!!

Tweety: I said do you have a daughter?

Jerry: Er..YEA.!So what?!!

Tweety: Then what if the one blocking your car wasnt me but your daughter? Would you have honk like that? No right??

Jerry:(@##$% became ..........)

You see, stop bullying on the road bcoz you'll never know when it will happen to you or your loved ones someday.Think about it.

Fuck you JERRY.

2011-05-29T23:11:00.000+08:00

Today is the very day when i'm finally fed up with all the broken english goin on in msia.girls n boys,pls read at least the newspaper ok?dont forget that english is still themost important language.so,correct yourself b4 u drive me mnuts.its not me is!!!!its i am.wtf were u doing???talking like sum illiterate fella??

Mr.Bull Terrier

2011-05-19T23:35:00.000+08:00

Today, I made up my mind.

I will prove Mr.Bull Terrier wrong.

Who says gym is the only place you can tone up?

Who says you need weights to get toned?

I say i do it my way and see how the outcomes goes..

BODYROCKERS..let's do it!

Fed up

2011-05-07T22:43:00.000+08:00

Fed up level:80%

Fun,peace,joy and laughter..YEARITE.

This is not how you love a person. This is not how you show that you care. This is not how you value a girl, when she's the one who is only doing all the crap.

If you really love me, this is not how you would treat me. Even if you do love me, then i dont think i can live with it. Your attitude to me is like i'm a dirt when you dun feel like it, and then a jewel when you have the mood to speak to me. I dont ask for much, jus a lil assurance and concern every now and then. Is that too much?

Now i feel as if i'm single anyhow. OR am I always single anyway?? It makes me bleed inside everytime i think of you and all the nonsense you caused me to go through. Everytime i look at you, i want to love you more. But...instead of that, you strike me with yet another pain. Sumhow the way you ignore me at times just bcoz you dont feel like it makes me feel extremely worthless and unwanted. I feel super deep down rotten just like now. As if nobody would lay a second glance on me at all. If anyone ask me, where's your boyfriend? I wouldnt know how to reply. If anyone ask me, whats your boyfriend doing now? I wouldnt know how to reply either. So people, tell me..IS this a BOYFRIEND??

Enough is enough. I'm walking out if this continues. FUCK!!!!! GOd damn it! I'm not good enough?? Look, get this right ok?? Its the other way round. you're not good enough. Do something to salvage whats left ok? Dont keep repeating your mistakes over and over again.

Go out there and see for yourself if you can find sum1 else better than me.I gaurantee you NEVER.so, go.I wont stop you.The door's always open anyway.

-end-

kaninas in pyjamas.

2011-04-23T14:28:00.000+08:00

One day,

K1: are you thinking of what i'm thinking K2?

K2: yes i think i am K1.

Time to make juivy's life miserable.

Yes.

Just exactly wat the kaninas in pyjamas would do.

K1's a very horrific asshole who started my nightmare of competency generic and natural resources.

He's a pain in the ass.

K2 on the other hand, told me to shut up bcoz i was too responsive, hurling insults all bcoz boohooohoo...she's a lonely old lady.I'll hafta gif it up to human health major for always putting up with her dramas.U guys are the best.

Yes,

Its now my time to leave n face even more kaninas out there.

But dun worry,

My memories of Kaninas in pyjamas will always stay.

Grown ups

2011-04-23T00:28:00.000+08:00

Sometimes,

I wish you would just understand..

It's not that i dont care or i've changed.

Its just that i've grown up.

I have my own perspectives,opinions,decisions and plannings.

I have responsibilities and battles of my own now.

I can no longer compromise to all the laws set when i was once a child.

I need space for my own ground.

So,please dont judgemental.

Sometimes,

Believe it or not,

We can handle things on our own.

We now make decisions and value right from wrong ..

Bcoz we're GROWN UPs...

But it doesnt mean we're drifting further,

Neither does it mean we dont care or love you lesser.

Your help and guidance is very preacious to us.

But still,

You need to know,

It simply means.....

Though you'll always see us as lil kids running around.

Truth is...Mom and dad,

We're all grown ups now.

Bieber fever??

2011-04-22T16:22:00.002+08:00

Inspired by the girlboy.

WARNING:there is now an outbreak of a disease called the Bieber fever.

Its makes you lose your mind and act like a fuckin sissy.

This disease infects 99% dumb teenage chicks.

The other 1% = freakin she-men..

Examples of the symptoms are shown in this pic.

Latest analysis shows that even newspaper editors are affected as well.

Posting articles with titles like below in the everyday newspaper we ADULTS read:

"He touched my hands and i'm never washing my hands."

Bieber fever is getting out of hand.

Pls, PRECAUTIONs to parents, slap your kid if they wanna cut their hair like the girlboy.

Sumbody, evacuate Bieber out of the country NOW.

Bieber fever is killin the youngsters.

We will be seeing recovery in the thousands of casualties as the girlboy leaves the building.

-end-

Speechless.

2011-04-20T23:03:00.001+08:00

This is why we should save the earth, our home.

Girl power

2011-04-19T20:05:00.002+08:00

Today's about girl power.
Yeah its the exam period.Hopefully the last.

But,I'm not stressed bcoz of dat la.

Many frens voice concern over my status.

Haiz....There's a lot more in life right now than a few papers in the exam hall.

Pressures rising all around me.

Pushing me to make decisions soon.

Am i ready??

When big boss says now.I say not now.

Damn.

Anyway,

To get away from the pressure,

I got hooked on viewing interesting websites.
Was reading an article which stated average american women masterbate at least once a day.WOW.
That's what i call FREE.

Then i came across bodyrock.tv...she made my day and will be rocking my world very soon.

Was looking for workout sons...untill I came across kate perry's e.t video.wow...She can reli make a beautiful alien.

Way better than lady gaga's born this way.

Perfect fit.

Perry the e.t.

Interesting.: )

Part of life.

2011-04-17T22:28:00.005+08:00

There are lots of temptations.

And i'm missing out quite a bit.

But I also understand that in time to come...

I'll be standing right where i want to be ten years down the road.

Perseverence,intelligence and ambition will carry me a long way.

Thats one thing i'll certainly understand.

It's the fundamentals of realistic and materialistic life that I need to adapt and achieve.

Right now,i'm already lacking behind.

Fun can wait for its never too late.

Hard work pays off a million dollar house, a maserati hottie and a globe tour.

You can even make it to the moon sumday.

If you have the money.

It's an addiction i'll soon hook onto.

They say money can't buy you everything.

But i sure know it can buy me everything else that makes my loved ones and i happy.

-end-

Words of encouragement

2011-04-15T19:08:00.001+08:00

If you can imagine it, you can achieve it.

If you can dream it, you can become it
.
William Arthur Ward
(1921-1994)

Jia Li Hai

2011-04-13T01:51:00.000+08:00

Yea,yea...She danced reli well.

Freaking goood example of JIA LI HAI.

Check it out.

Think b4 u act ; )

Random

2011-04-10T13:45:00.001+08:00

People used to nag at why i do not silent my phone when i'm sleeping.the answer is simple,for emergencies.like today..i wouldnt haf helped if my phone didnt wake me up.so,stop the nagging from now on.shit happens u know??

Black or Red?

2011-04-10T00:13:00.001+08:00

Think black and white pandas are cute?

Wait till u see the red ones..

Both vulnerable mammals..Pick one.U decide.

DO NOT GIF UP

2011-04-08T12:21:00.000+08:00

When you set your mind up to work on smth,

Put your whole heart into doing it,

Commit to your decisions,

And DO NOT GIVE UP.

Because one day,

You'll achieve your dream.

And it would all be worth the while.

Random

2011-04-06T21:30:00.000+08:00

Why did life become so complicated?

That's a question i often find myself asking..

Why can't it be just like everybody else?

Or is everyone else hiding the ugly truth?

I dont know.I wont ever know.

Don't you just hate that feeling?

Perhaps you wont ever realise.

But I was once very purely naive.

I'm so complicated now bcoz you started it.

Your existance marked the offset of my roller coaster.

Nobody else.

Just YOU.

It is what it is

2011-04-04T00:07:00.001+08:00

One of my fav songs: It Is What It Is.

Simply bcoz it resembles life in every single way.
Was browsing thru my older posts and i came across this.

Smth like me looking forward to touring in Japan.
Sure yeah,two months ago,i would.
Now?WTF.
A while ago everything was normal.
Then NATURAL DISASTER strikes back.
And you die,she dies,he dies,they die,everybody dies.

Tragic isnt it?

Read,read,read,read,read.

2011-04-02T13:32:00.001+08:00

I met another man of wisdom recently.The things he sayid and the changes he made with his life is worth admiring.

1) He doesn't go about to changing people just to please his yearnings.

2) Instead, he changes himself to fit and adapt with the rest.

3) During a massive goondoo traffic jam in the parking, he decided to take a long walk to his destination, knowing that the only prob to solve the chaos in front is by being eco frenly enuf to walk all the way.

4) For a guy his age (compared tot he other paria uncles), he is willing enough to understand peoples' needs and urgency and is kind enough to pay attention and compromise.

5) Simple man,simple life,use what is necessary and utilise the nature with minimum material supply.

6) Shares his knowledge with whatever he understands and respect each individual regardless of age and intelligence.

7)Looking at everything with fact and not judging by fiction and news alone.

All these add up to one thing.BCOZ he READS.

As simple as that.

He READS.

Shut the fuck up

2011-03-29T18:32:00.002+08:00

If i were to write a song right now, it would be titled shut the fuck up.
Pls pls pls pls pls for worldpeace and godforsaken love,
Shut the fuck up in facebook.
Stop putting up senseless writings to get to others.
Keep it to yourselves blabber mouths!!

-end-

shallow minded

2011-03-29T13:37:00.001+08:00

Yes,everybody says local uni graduates are losers who are not qualified enough for private sectors.

Issue: True or False??

I'll hafta admit, majority are seriously in need of more reading, awareness and more critical thinking. Just when i think i'm already shallow minded enough, others line behind me like caterpillars. Its not entirely about each individual and how ignorant we r of our environment. It could have a lot to do with our education system that teaches us in theory without application. Best by experience, we can learn way more effectively than three years of intensive theory pumping.

But, in order to build this "general knowledge" up, i'll need to be reading a lot more and being more observant.With the fact of increasingly demand for my theories to be memorised just for the sake of freaking exam papers, we forget the purpose of learning. By this i mean learning for ourselves and not to fulfill just our report cards. As if your boss would give a damn at how high you've scored when you can't even manage to sellBbeing increasingly observant builds up the space in your mind positively. To boost your knowledge on things you have never approached.

Right now,i cannot see myself and where i'll be standing. Right now, with all the ambition but lack of the qualifications and knowledge, I am convinced, its impossible to achieve what i set out to accomplish in the first place.

No time for frustration and weeping. Boys and girls, get your ass up and deal with this BIG PROBLEM. Be competitive n work for it. Starting from....NOW.Here's a list of nonsense to lessen in your life:

a) Facebook

b) Twitter

c) Gaming

d) Kegatalan

e) Smoking and drinking

f) Movie

g) Ktv

h) paparazi magazines

Instead, wether you like it or not, read on:

a)BBC news

b) Newspaper

c) The EDGE

d) Times

e) Readers digest

f) Shape

I'm not suggesting to wipe out your leisures entirely...But get more time to focus on whats more important..Saving your ass in society for your own future. I better get going. Time to take the big leap.

Recently.

2011-03-15T02:07:00.000+08:00

Recently, i've been dreaming a lot about the same thing.

Standing at a padang feeling the breeze and relaxing my time away.

Weird...but such nonsense happens when you're over busy.

YES,overbusy.

2011-03-14T01:04:00.000+08:00

Feeling u're losing sumthing sumhow?

Maybe you're right.

Sumtimes when you feel smth belongs to you...
But its not reli the truth,
What would you do if you realised it one day?

will it hurt you to the heart's core?

I'm standing in between....
And i dont know what to do.
I feel like such a bitch.
Bcoz i'm not truthful.

Whatever comes, be ready.
I'm sorry i'm deceiving you.
But Damn!
This is the hardest one so far.

Lonely boy

2011-02-14T18:42:00.001+08:00

I hate it when it rains nowadays coz it gets reli cold sumtimes...

and

If i were to go shopping today,

I would buy myself a huge bed,huge blanket with cotton sheets,loads of huge cuddly pillows and a cuddly bear.

Ok,cancel the cuddly bear and ....FINE...i'll gif all of that up.

Just for another minute with u ; ).

Dun be lonely boy,

Hugs.

Unconditional

2011-02-13T23:36:00.000+08:00

Love is unconditional.
But if only the whole world can see how much we love each other.
That would be nice.
And when love comes,
No matter how fast or far you run,
It snaps you like a fly catcher.
When i'm ready and when the time comes.
I'll step it out with you.
Be patient and compromising like now.
And we'll go a very long way.
Simply because I love you.

my goodness.

2011-02-07T17:44:00.001+08:00

I was in much anger when i heard it from you fren.

Bcoz of a silly mistake,you gave up the whole world.

Ok,maybe not the whole world.

It was just a simple mistake.

Y shud it cost our long term frenship?

Painful??

Incomparable to any of ours.

What to compare?incomparable.

INCOMPARABLE.

damn.

Its your loss.to judge us by a crow.

Thanks but NO THANKS.

A FREN LIKE YOU.

is NOT a fren indeed.

Attention

2011-02-06T21:17:00.000+08:00

How do u feel when you see sumone in a relationship?

Wish them all the best and congrats?

Maybe..

But what if he's sumone u once had feelings for?

Maybe...

Just maybe.

There wasn't reli a fullstop to our story.

Thanks for leaving it unfinished.

Fuck you.

2011-01-25T15:21:00.001+08:00

People who think they know everything are jokers of themselves.
People who mock others are losers of themselves.
What u dunoe is dat everyone's laughing out loud at u.
Sadcase..dun end up like one of them ok?

fishing.

2011-01-24T23:07:00.000+08:00

i've been fishing everyday.
as long as i get to st down and take a break.
I'll be fshng.

Nope,not giving up.
Gonna be the hell of a week.
So much just so i cud go home in peace.

Definitely worth it.
Cant wait for the cozy bed back home.
One of the things I miss the most.

this isnt how its really meant to be

2011-01-23T16:43:00.001+08:00

Don't think i can take it anymore.

I hate struglling in mid air.

So,if you're the one,come right now will you?

Its getting to me more and more each day.

I need to move on and no turn back.

My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away.

But every now and then you come to mind.

Coz you were always waiting to be picked to play the game.

When your name was called,you found a place to hide.

When you knew that i was always on your side.

Maybe sheryl crow was jus half right.

You came too late my dear.

Like always.

You came too late.

Take away my pain please?

Its killin me.

random

2011-01-02T23:44:00.000+08:00

I cant go about telling you what i actually do everyday.

What is it that i'm studying and practising.

If i were to explain everything in my blog,

I think i would die.

So,I'm leaving it anonymous.

Dats it.

Dear fren,

I'm a very straightforward person.

Even when i'm so damn busy lately,

I'm surprised that i actually miss you.

Where have you been?

Busy with work or had enough of me?

Made a call to you.

But i guess it was the wrong timing.

Guess the same thing goes about again.

I'm being used.Yea,i know that,thx.

Happy New Year fren.

Dun worry,I dun jump into crap if its not worth it.

Stay happy n healthy always.

Love,Juivy.

2010-12-26T20:11:00.000+08:00

Someday i'll prove to you that I can do it.
Just like anyone of them.
Better than what they can achieve.

You think me as a little kid.
Thats okay.
Bcoz one day,i'll make my mark.

You dont believe in me right now.
But its okay too.
Bcoz one day,i'll make it bigger than any of them.
One day i'll show you I'm equally capable.

Patience is the key.
You just wait and see.

There is more than meets the eye

2010-12-22T03:28:00.001+08:00

This trip is an eye opener.

There is more than meets the eye.

Simply because I've once again found the true love for nature.

The only reason why we should sustain the beauty of it.

The only reason why we survive everyday.

How simple life can be for some.

The power of nature.

There is more than meets the eye.

I discovered the deeper meaning of other religions.

By truly respecting and learning their culture.

With the guidance of a generous friend.

It is you that made me realise.

There is so much yet to be learnt.

And what travelling can teach you.

Is never what money can buy : )

2010-12-18T16:42:00.001+08:00

Fuck u racist freak!fuck ur mom n dad's asses as well.

:(

2010-12-15T22:38:00.000+08:00

What do girls do when they feel terrible?

We cry.

Crumble down and let it out.

hard lesson

2010-12-15T10:54:00.000+08:00

The hardest lesson for me to learn on.
Save money.
Its time to get a hold on myself.
Things are getting haywire recently.
Wrong girl..
Let's get back on track.

mYLIFE NOW

2010-12-14T00:27:00.000+08:00

GIS= Geographical Information system.

It has become my daily routine..eating and breathing it.
But one good thing though,
It trains me to think out of the box.
It drives my brain to higher grounds.
Pushing it to further limits.

But question is,would i rather have it than not?
NO.

fitness

2010-12-11T11:38:00.000+08:00

Its time.

Let's mamafy my body once again.

Time to pump up the engine and work those muscles..

Let's get fit.

reality check

2010-12-10T10:28:00.000+08:00

they say my sacrifise...
creed sang my sacrifise....

What did i learn?
My sacrifise depends on the condition and situation.
I guess i gave my time too much on attending to others.
Something i should learn..
Say no.

One more sem to go..
Its too late.
But life has to go on.
I have to stop other nonsense besides this.
Lets do it.

Loser

2010-12-09T22:56:00.000+08:00

I've let my family down.
My dad down,my mom down.

I've let my life down.

Most of all,
I've let myself down.
Everything's already too late.
And i've only got myself to blame.

Hand me a knife pls.
People like me shudnt exist.
Failures are the road to success.
Failures are my phobias.

Bcoz now i feel jus like a loser.
A deep down rotten loser.

creativity

2010-12-09T01:49:00.000+08:00

Creativity can bring you a long way.

It can attract attention beyond your imagination.

All you need is to think outside the box.

I know a fren who can do it very well.

And given credit for being so almost everyday.

Kudos to you.

Can u be as observant and creative?

Can you make out craps from nothing?

Maybe you should start.

Be diff,be smart..

When i think of you,I think of snores.

So,snores..

A problem to most men.

Its comforting sumtimes..for us..to sometimes know you're very sound asleep with your snores.

Its annoying when it gets reli damn loud.

All in all...maybe i shud be creative.

How to make the snore go away?

I'll think if i have the time..

Just maybe.

Autism

2010-12-05T15:59:00.000+08:00

Weird..

Feeling butterflies in my stomach definitely sucks..

But there's no reason y!

I'm becoming a lil nuts again.

Wonder who can tune me back this time??

Question of the day:Autism

What if you found out your child has autism?

Face the truth and work on it.

Don't deny the fact that your child needs special care.

I know sum kids who suffer violence bcoz of this problem.

But not all are like that : )

Example,today....

I witnessed the love and support of a couple to their autistic child this morning.

That makes all the difference.

Bcoz they choose to understand he's special..

Though he was crying ever so loudly,

They didnt raise a single voice at him.

Instead,

They embraced him and calmed him down.

He just can't express himself bcoz of the overwhelming crowd.

I admire them for their patience..

And to you people out there.

Stop staring till your bread dropped on the table ok.!

He's human after all..

And deserves equal respect.

Reli felt like slapping that cartoonistic man.

Damn you mak kepos.

fuck you

2010-12-05T00:49:00.000+08:00

I'm not blind.

You're not mine.

You're not interested.

But that's fine.

A fella shows how much they're capable of....

From the way they treat you.

You?

Treat me like dirt.

Well,guess wad?

I'm no such crap u think i am.

Get sweet when you're alone.

give me shit when you're occupied.

Guess wad?

i'm sick n tired of you being ful of yourself.

I dun stay even if it takes another minute..

I wont beg to see you again.

Bcoz you dun even care of my existance.

Now thats fucked up.

So,i'll jus fuck up..

If you're too blind to see my worth?

Fuck you.

Faith

2010-12-03T13:33:00.000+08:00

Yesterday and today were reli blissful days..
All around me were girls and boys finding love at last..
After so much struggles.

Suddenly,I look at myself in the mirror.
Hmph?
There's only one reflection looking back.
Though there's nobody standing beside me for now..
I'll find you eventually.
I'll wait..
I'm happy the way i am now.
All it takes is patience.

For those on the way,
Good luck will come your way.
I'm sure; )
Have faith.

random

2010-12-03T03:25:00.000+08:00

All the girls around me are slowly finding their grounds...

All the girls around me are gradually stabling down...

Makes me extremely happy to see them smile:)

Bcoz they've finally found their soulmates now.

May happiness and blessings be with you...

Expecially this festive season of...

CHRISTMAS!!

2010-12-02T01:39:00.001+08:00

I've blogged bout my dad b4...but I am so sorry I forgot to blog bout another beautiful person in mu life.
The coolest woman to me in this world..is my best fren,
My mum..
While ur mother's nagging at u 24/7,
My mum's giving me fashion,beauty advise like a diva...
When ur mom's interrogating u on da phone,
My mum's tellin me funny dirt jokes dat makes me laugh!
When u complain ur mom doesn't understand u and u wish to get away from her,
My mum's my best listener...
When u r forced to go sumwer wid ur mom,
I'm missing every moment that I'm unable to accompany her.
When u r forced to do housechores at home,
My mom n I work together hand in hand as pardners...
When ur mom complains u r too lazy,
My mum takes me out to relax myself:)
Yes,I m the luckiest girl in the world to have a fantastic dad n a wonderful mom..
If I cud I wud share them wid u..
But then agin,though there may b times of conflicts,
Family's always the dearest n most important:)
As much flaws they may posses,

They'll always be my perfect parents:)
I would never have them any other way:)

Cheer up

2010-12-02T00:53:00.000+08:00

It only takes a cheerful greeting to brighten up your day.
Just a simple gesture today sent many of u ready for the challenges ahead.

Keep smiling frens...dat's da way;)

go away

2010-12-01T19:06:00.002+08:00

Another usual day in the lab ,

Fuckin busy like usual

Untill I came upon a message.
Holding back my sorrow.

I had to call it a day after that.

Please go away.

Bcoz seems like its back to haunt me.

Its so hard to let go ok?

Just leave me be.

For the better of both.

Ngau lak fu yi.

wake up call

2010-11-28T02:05:00.001+08:00

thing is..IN THIS WORLD,if you're gonna wait for spoon feeding,you'll die.

Work hard for yourself,your future and your life.

Not wait for others to tell you what's what.

Because you hold your own destiny and fate.

Not the other person who tells you what's what.

Understand this as during crucial moments like this,

It's all about going all out to save your ass.

but,if you're not gonna do anything about it,

While everyone else is moving in such a fast pace,

You'll never be able to keep up.

So what if you will get what you want without even trying in the end?

So what all you need is to just wait?

Your moral,humanity and survival is at stake.

This world is unfair.You slowdown,you die.

That's how it goes.

Do something about it.Make yourself useful.

Be initiative..Be hardworking.

Bcoz if you're gonna continue spoon feeding,

You're only hiding under the shadows of others.

Thing is,people like you will always be hiding in your shell.

People like us,will only learn to toughen up as each day passes.

Make your choice.

When the world has left you behind,

Don't say that i didn't remind you...

You can't hide forever you know..

The society is harsh and cold..

Having protected every step of the way,

Makes you even more vulnerable.

You'll never survive.

If you continue thriving on other's.

Stop depending on them.

BE INDEPENDENT.

Don't wait for the food to drop down from the sky.

If they can do it,so can i.

If they can make it,so can i.

Be INDEPENDENT.

SO CAN I.

BUT,can you?

random

2010-11-27T20:49:00.002+08:00

The problem with girls...

IS that we are emotional freaks.

We hold on to things that are meant to be discarded a long time ago.

The thing about men,

Is that they are always so simple..

To the extand where they'll never understand every womens needs.

A rainy day like this,

Got me missing many people..

My family

My fren

You,

And your smell.

Hmph...your warm cushion would be nice..

Well,let's just say a woman thinks too much.

Just like what i'm doing now.

Fuck the smell and move on.

Home

2010-11-27T20:42:00.000+08:00

Its times like this that i miss home badly.
I'm working my ass off here,but....
My spirit's way back home.
To where i truly belong.

wise move.

2010-11-22T12:33:00.000+08:00

Left eye twitching..

Gud things will come soon.

DOUBLE YAY!

Hmph...Two posts ago,

I mentioned about a stranger rite?

Guess wad.

He's no stranger after all.

Super wise choice.

Good job Juivy,good job!

For those of you who may sulk at Monday..

Live with it.

Coz as much as you want everyday to be Sunday,

It will still be good old Monday anyway.

funny fing

2010-11-21T14:43:00.001+08:00

I was browsing around when i saw THIS very interesting advertisement.

Hmph...

"RABBIT VIBRATORS"..

Combination of clitoral vibrator and dildo..TADAA...

U get RABBIT VIBRATORS.

I got a bloody good laugh at how much nonsense there is in that website..LOL..

Some gadgets are absolutely too ridiculous.

Call me suaku..but i have never in my life so far know there's so many bloody types of vibrators and stimulators..

These people are seriously damn creative man.

And they dont come in cheap at all.

RM200 and above.

Many told me its good investment.

Hmph....

Just get a bf la.

-end-

nasty

2010-11-20T12:38:00.000+08:00

Whose nasty?

I am.

I hurt a stranger right in the face today.

Wow..

All i did was said this.

I have a bad vibe towards pro golfers.So pls get lost.

His intentions are innocent.But I'm too judgemental this time.

I'm sorry.

The hurt's so deep it drove me nuts a lil.

The memory can never be erased.

All bcoz of you.

So,pro golfers...blame it on him who spoilt your names.

emo

2010-11-20T01:30:00.000+08:00

I drive by your house everyday.

But tonight,

I drove by your house too late.

Had the urge to pass the guards and honk you down.

Hate it when emo strikes.

You don't know what you have till its gone.

random

2010-11-19T15:25:00.000+08:00

As much as i want to see u,
I need to understand,
Yeap,I will understand.
Some things will come when its meant to come.
Patience will pay off..
Patience will show you what you wanna know.
Just you wait and see.

out of control

2010-11-19T01:28:00.001+08:00

My anger caused trouble again.
I need sum anger management...
My frustration level is getting out of hand.
I'm putting too much pressures and worries on myself.
Lets just say i'm going crazy.

I'm sorry i've hurt you.
I feel bad whenever this happens...
but why do i still let it happen?

I need help to get this problem solved...
I dont know how to handle my tolerance...
When things just wouldnt stop frustrating me.
Bcoz of the accumulated frustration,I find small matters intolerable.
N i'll burst.

Sumtimes i reli dunoe what to do..
And i lose things that might mean a lot to me...
Please dun lose faith in me..
Whoever that i may have hurt along the way.
I'm sincerely sorry.
Give me time to sort things out.
I'm reli under a lot of pressure right now.

Blog inspiration

2010-11-17T21:39:00.000+08:00

Obviously my design hints smth.
To keep me reminded of what i should plan soon.
I yearn for a beach retreat..yearn to lie down and waste my time away...
Enjoy my coconut and napping in the middle of nowhere.
That to me is paradise.

I miss the good old trip.
Next sem,i'll go.jom!

2010-11-17T18:14:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow,i'm bloody gonna get my workout.I'm bloody gonna finish what i set out to finish.I'm bloody gonna succeed in all my applications and will bloody do sum study tomorrow.So anyone whose gonna get in the way,FUCK OFF!!!stop delaying my time u !@#$%^&*(! FUCK OFF!

freakin frus

2010-11-17T18:06:00.000+08:00

2010-11-16T20:57:00.002+08:00

stressed,crazy,happy,sad,angry,frus at the same time.So much to do and worry...yet i'm freakin lazy.lazy like hell.

This is not a holiday!!!wake up!

Let's play

2010-11-16T02:01:00.000+08:00

R u game enuf?Wanna play?

Like a monopoly game gone crazy expressway..

Step right in.

Oh no....no more turning back..

Like an endless roller coaster ride...

Sure u're ready?

Think again.

Oh,so now you're walking away??

Not fun enuf for you?

Fuck off lo.

Get lost.

Ohya,and hey u there...

Who the fuck do you think you are?

Come crawling back when you're not wanted at all.

Turn around and get lost.

Kiss my ass goodbye asshole.

The only woman who will love you now is your mom.

MOTHAFUCKA.

i'm keeping the don't care mood from now on.

life's too short to care.

First cut is the deepest

2010-11-15T18:01:00.000+08:00

She's back or will be back soon i believe..
And you'll be happy bcoz this time,you'll get to see her.
You'll be happy bcoz finally...she's gone back to you.
Y?first cut is always the deepest i guess.
Is she your first cut?

My worries

2010-11-15T00:13:00.000+08:00

Ever felt the weight on your shoulder becoming so heavy,you could hardly stand anymore?

Sometimes when the pressures and worries get overwhelming,you find yourself so intensely nervous and uptight.

I sit here with my heart beating so fast...

Feeling the sudden rush of panic through my veins...

Its times like this that i feel i have push myself too much.

But compared to the world..I'm just a tiny little dot.

Time waits for nobody,but yet,there's only one me.

The things i can do is so so limited that i hate myself for giving up sometimes.

Yet we all know...that's life...letting go of certain things is part of life.

I drive myself crazy sometimes because to achieve perfection,

Means to go all out and make it flawless.

Whatever i do,whatever i set out to achieve.

Whatever's the cost,whatever it takes.

I'll have to do it.

I may not be working right now..

But i'm training myself for that mentality...

Strong determination as a stepping stone to success.

Its a tough road,but will be a tougher one soon.

Push the extra milage..

I dont wanna be sitting in a mamak,chatting my life away about y i dont have money.

I wanna be the one who owns that mamak and watchin you people wasting your time about y u dont have money.

So,

work hard.

Express train.no pit stops...

No short cuts...

No rests...

Have faith.

Just do it.

i care about you

2010-11-08T16:01:00.000+08:00

I care about you,but i dont know how to get to you.
Sometimes when you're frus,friend...I care about you.
Its not that i dont try or try too hard...but,its hard to know what cheers you up the most.
I pains me to watch my loved ones suffer in misery.
I want to share your burden and your pain.
Not be your nuisance and add up to your pain.

But,tell me...
What does it take to cheer you up?
I am not the joking type.not the sweet tongue type.jus plain old boring type.
BUT...bare in mind and....
Always remember..
When life gets a little tough.and you're feeling rotten...
I'd still care about you.
Just a call or sms away.
Because simple....
Friend,
I love you.

Mothafucka

2010-11-08T02:29:00.001+08:00

Blogging at this hour has bcum a routine...
Mothafuckas...
Allow me to describe my version.
Single,sleeps around,fucks around,plays around...
Starts a story,mesmerises the lady,then fuck her,leave her.
Starts a story,mesmerises the dude,then fuck and leave him.
MOTHAFUCKA...

Super common around the world.
What happened to the good old hold hands days?
We all go for expressway nowadays...
A need for speed?
Try a MOTHAFUCKA.

2010-11-07T16:55:00.000+08:00

I'M FUCKIN TIRED.my heart's gonna burst anytime coz i'm feeling the exhaustion everywer specially on my chest.its taking a huge toll on me.

Freakin frus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PAMPER ME NOW.

2010-11-06T05:35:00.002+08:00

GO TO HELL.

Random

2010-11-06T05:16:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i wonder,
Why humans have to be so complicated...
Y cant everyone just be simple and live happily ever after?
Why carry so much burden?

What's the purpose of life actually?
I can't really answer this question perfectly..
Because there's never a right or wrong.
Dat's what makes it even more confusing...

Dat's what keeps one aimless and off track sometimes...
Think about it.

2010-11-05T05:14:00.000+08:00

Disasters are blooming everywer like cherry blossoms blooming during its season.Plenty till you beg them to stop.How??!!! How?!!!

Indonesia,sadcase volcano wont stop erupting.Gila punya babi volcano.What to do,mother nature ma.
Everyday protest here protest there.y so free?Come clean my room for me la...so free!
Chop here chop there...shoot here shoot there,bomb here bomb there..So much for banning yoga.

End of the world.TRUE or FALSE.
Don't act stupid,u know what i'm talking about.

Watcha gonna do if tomorrow's the end of the world?
Seriously.
A fren once told me,get laid like mad.
Me??
I dunoe myself either.

Like that lo....

-end-

5am

2010-11-05T05:01:00.000+08:00

Two more minutes till 5am.
I'm killin myself,i know..shut up la.

Responsibility,commitment,duties,dreams,objectives,goals,aims,targets,loyalty,tasks,challenges,knowledge.

Fuck them all right now.
Off to bed.Come here you...

When you're extremely fatigue,
Physically and mentally,
Your biggest consolation will always be THE BED.

Haiz....what's next?

2010-11-02T14:41:00.002+08:00

when you've done what you set out to do today,
A sense of accomplishment floods over you.
BUT,suddenly you think of whats for tomorrow..
Then you remember there's a whole lot more waiting for you to do...
The piles of journals for you to read..
The solution to your project you're assigned to solve...

Life of a researcher..
Is that really what i want to do?
Seriously doubting my life now.

Its time to choose my path wisely.
Agree?

random

2010-11-01T20:27:00.000+08:00

if there's someone that i wish to see.
IT'S YOU.
Nobody but you.

But i cant be home just yet..
Still ,I cant wait to see you..
Yea,fanatic.
Just maybe.

Or its just bcoz i miss you: )

great night

2010-10-31T14:56:00.000+08:00

Its been so long...so fuckin god damn long..since i had a really good night out...
Though super random,
But it was worth all the while...
You five made my day ; )
Let's do it again...but pls stick wid limau panas next time.lol...

I'm thinking and wondering,
Where have you been/?
Lost interest so soon?
I hope not...when i'm just starting to enjoy the ride.

You're not like other guys..
Its ok if u wanna take your words back.
I try not to hold onto it much...
Learn from past mistakes..
Never to believe it again.

If there's someone who will change my mind sumday about men and lies.
I'd strike first prize in lottery...
God damn it.

kl idiot

2010-10-29T01:59:00.000+08:00

I'm a KL idiot.
Wave my white flag and surrender..

I got lost again...broke my previous few records.
We got lost and toured practically everywher in kl except sunway,subang bangsar.
supposed to go the mines..end up in mid valley.wtf.

Dat's how good signboards in Malaysia are nowadays.

look on the bright side: D
We still got the best airport in the world...
KLIA...our pride.:P

or is it?

2010-10-26T14:13:00.001+08:00

Everytime I hear a child cry...my heart aches to the core.
I sumtimes find myself feeling so intense for them that my eyes would tear..
When a child cries,we can tell if they just want attention or they are in fear..or they are just sad
I heard him clearly today again..and this time I'm reli very sad...
His cries sound like he's in fear n very very upset.

U see,
There's a minority in my neighbourhood who considers shouting and screaming n prob whacking a child is correct.
But who r u to bring ur child to this world to torture them?
A childhood should be full of love,nurture n care...
Not fear of a slamming door or screaming hysterical mother.

I'm no good with kids..but there's smth bout them that I adore n would never wanna destroy.
Their innocence and happiness r priceless...
Please....don't torture your child.abuse is not the solution..
I am sure there are alternative approaches to ur child's problem.

Stop hitting them.

2010-10-23T16:04:00.000+08:00

well,people,weekend...
What can i say....what can i say....!
Some mite be goyang kaki at home,some chillin in the cinema,some driving on the highway
some buying diapers in jusco,some chatting the day away in lavender,some working hardcore like usual,some getting ready for a marathon in zouk tonight....

Whatever it is...

Enjoy your weekend!!!
U deserve it ; )

2010-10-22T17:46:00.000+08:00

I'm gona partae when its over.
I'm gonna drink like there's no tomorrow.
Since when did i let myself repeat my mistakes.

None.

Then y in the world wud it happen now?

Stay focus.Don't lose track.
Work hard..and forget bout the rest.

When its over,celebrate and still......

Forget bout the rest.

here we go again..

2010-10-22T17:37:00.002+08:00

be a bitch.not a kind spirit.
what happens when i becum too nice?
i get annoying..

I shud stop.RIGHT NOW.
I shudnt play with fire...no more Juivy....
No more.

Don't start efforts.
Don't build a bridge across the river.
Don't get to the other side
Though it may be greener.
Stop these bullshits...
They were never meant to happen.
Keep your cool and back off.
NOW.
I should thank my reminder..
For slapping me on the face when i lost focus.
Time to get real.
I don't want to get hurt again.

Is that too much to ask?

frog prince

2010-10-22T02:28:00.000+08:00

sometimes,
when i am reminded of my singlehood...
I celebrate it like any hardcore human being.

Sometimes,
when i get really hopelessly busy,
I miss having someone just like any other human being.

That shoulder to lean on,
The back to rest my head on,
The embrace of love to count on,
The hug of comfort to cry on.

Today,i had a bad dream.
A dream that frog prince came back to me.
Silly just like any human being.

Dat wont ever happen.I feel i need to assure everyone.
Especially myself.

No more frog princes pls..I cannot take for even just another one anymore.

:(

2010-10-13T17:20:00.002+08:00

:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(....what does it take to put a smile on my face again?.......

2010-10-09T19:08:00.000+08:00

eversince the recent incidents,I began to realise..
And finally understand why i had to go thru all these.
While others jus happily continue living their lives.

Its yet another test on true frenships..
Another one that blocks out all superficial lies.
One that shows me clearly who is worth and whose not.

But it got me pretty sad all of a sudden...
To realise...there's nobody i can trust.
A very hard lesson learn....
Very hard indeed : (

Never trust anyone.
One more semester b4 i walk out a free bird..
I'll be quiet about it...
But i finally know the reality behind everything.
Our journey will end after our uni years together...
And after convo,all will be jus memories left behind.
Such a cruel ending to digest.

frustration

2010-10-09T18:57:00.000+08:00

I dont wish to speak to you
Dont wish to talk to you
Dont wish to look at you
Dont even wanna bother about you.

Its not all about you..
But part of the little things that you do
Which makes me sick of you.

So,pls..learn to care more for others.
Being more considerate is the least you could do for someone.
I might just walk away soon.
The sight of you is unbearable.

used to be.

2010-10-06T19:52:00.000+08:00

USED TO BE a top student who dont even care bout result slips..untill the day i reached second year,am i forced to get it.

NOW,as i walk towards the usual department...to collect my timetable and result slip,i keep my head bowed down.bcoz somehow,i have failed to achieve what i set out to do in the first place...Failure is the road to success..maybe.

A regret i'll always remember.

take me home.

2010-10-06T13:21:00.002+08:00

I'm sad n i miss home badly.

-end-

2010-10-04T20:08:00.002+08:00

i'll cough till my lungs jump out.

damn.